Exactly Where I'm Meant to Be by Maddy Heikkila (YTT Cohort 1)
After having a week to digest everything, I wanted to share a little about my first Yoga Teacher Training (YTT) weekend. The one thing that I want to say above all is I feel like this training fits me perfectly. I had been looking at tons of different teacher trainings near and far and none of them felt right until I found House of the Gathering, and now I know why. It is exactly where I’m meant to be.
The thing that surprised me the most about the weekend was that I unpacked a lot more baggage than I expected to on the first weekend. To be honest, I thought the self-discovery aspect would come later on but it now seems like it will be an ongoing part of the whole training (which is great in my opinion). Because of this, I’m also incredibly grateful for all the amazing people I get to share this journey with. I think the small class size (there were eight of us this weekend) was perfect because everyone was able to get to know each other quite well and be there for support and encouragement the whole way.
I also surprised myself by loving the more technical parts of our training. I knew there would be numerous workshops and classes regarding anatomy and physiology but I didn’t expect to enjoy it as much as I did. I guess that’s where my love for learning comes in (thanks Mom!). I am also relieved that I liked it as much as I did because I know that understanding how your students’ bodies move in order to keep them within the boundaries of safe movement patterns is a crucial part of teaching.
The one thing that happened that I wasn’t surprised about were the few ego checks I got. Don’t get me wrong, I very much appreciated them and always will, but it’s not always an easy thing to hear. I know that I push myself too much sometimes (hence the shoulder injury) but it’s good to be reminded that you need to listen to your body and respect what it’s telling you. The thing I need to remember is, although I let my ego take over from time to time, I need to remain aware of that and keep it in check as much as I can. It’s a lifelong journey and something I will need to remain mindful of the whole way.
Overall, this weekend taught me that the more I learn, the more I realize how much I don’t know. It’s amazing how much there is to learn but I am over the moon excited to continue this journey. Now that I’ve gotten over the nervous jitters of beginning, I just want to keep going. Honestly, at this point, I wish I could just keep doing this forever and never have to face my fear of actually teaching. Luckily, I have some time to figure that out and some incredible people to support me along the way.